I’m departing today from the stories that come directly from the Camino as a more personally compelling one has emerged.
Since my last post on risking vulnerability I have had something of a writers block as I lost all sense of why I am blogging at all. I have learned that this….writing the story of my Camino…. is all about risking vulnerability as I still struggle to publicly acknowledge how important God is in my life. This is my current lesson from the Camino of life, to let go of the fear that holds me back from declaring my commitment and deep love of God.
My god is a god of love, of compassion, of forgiveness and of non judgement and this is the God that flows in me when I allow it…Sometimes, I question why I need to do this, why can’t I keep this to myself, do I really have to say these things, do I really have to reveal so much and make myself feel so vulnerable? And for some reason the answer is, yes I do. I do it because I know it’s what I am meant to do. It’s the only way I will really have peace, I have to be willing to step into the ring and say this is who I am. I do it because it breaks my heart not to and for me this is what it means to walk in the footsteps of Jesus.
As I see it all life lessons are about surrendering to God’s guidance, that deep spiritual knowing that is within all of us.